Sanctus Est

“Reading about nature is fine, but if a person walks in the woods and listens carefully, he can learn more than what is in books, for they speak with the voice of God.” - G.W. Carver

Tuesday, August 30, 2005


Feeling good!

I've been taking pics with my new digital camera!
A Canon Powershot A520! Just need to get the hang of
all the settings and possibilities! It's a good one for
getting pro shots!

Also, here are more reasons for me feeling great

(note I'm Alanna_Halfelven as you probably will guess).

I'm also meeting up with friends this week and next!
Going out for lunch with one of them tomorrow!

My Birthday was good, I have lots of goodies and have money!

Life looks grand today!

Saturday, August 27, 2005

My Birthday!

I'm 20 tomorrow! I'm 20 tomorrow!
I'm 20 tomorrow! I'm 20 tomorrow!
I'm 20 tomorrow! I'm 20 tomorrow!
I'm 20 tomorrow! I'm 20 tomorrow!
I'm 20 tomorrow! I'm 20 tomorrow!

Lol I'm excited!!!!!!
Haven't got much planned actually
but still... It's grand!!!!!!
And coz I've been working I have
money! Plus Birthday money...
Well that makes a small fortune!!
(Please note that for a while I
have been strapped for cash lol)

Going to church tomorrow morn
and I'm looking forward to that!

This is the last post that I will
make as a 19 year old!

Happy days!!!!

Monday, August 22, 2005

Poetry corner!

Both poems written by me 18/08/05.

Wondering Gypsy

I feel like the leaves of Autumn,
Blown to and fro, unknown where and when I'll land.
Turning all the colours of the sun,
Happy yellow, uncertain orange, tearstained red.

A lone gysy wondering the land,
wondering though life,
while others come and go.
Like a leaf, a gypsy wondering alone.

A season for everything:
Birth, life, wondering and dying.
Spring, Summer, Autumn, Winter.
Like a leaf floating in Autumn,
The Gypsey walks but doesn't settle.

The great tree stands,
still and calm, steady as a rock,
There with open arms,
Even while floating,
I know it's there.

A gypsy sees it when passing,
but still wondering.
She is in Autumn.


The stars at night,
steady and true,
sparkling and guiding,
peaceful, amazing.

Many a ship has been steared to safety.
Many a pilgrim seeking the way has gazed.
Many a lounger looking upwards at beauty.
Many an ancient looking for guidence.

The moon highlight's the stars' beauty.
Over land or water, the stars hold steady.

In a world of change a glimpse of eternity.

Thursday, August 18, 2005

The wind changes

Okay well the idea of changing my degree to English Lit has fallen
through. The convenor says I can't do it.
Back to being confuzed, not knowing what I want and having even
less time to decide. Okay truthfully you probably don't know how
badly I did this year. I think I have a habit of making things seem
lighter than they are even to my family who I live with. They were
suprised. They said they had no idea by looking at me. I probably
don't even register that I'm doing it sometimes. Ever the optimist
and idealist. Being realistic is harder.

For the past four years I've been unsettled in studies. Over the past
two, I've been unsettled in friendships as well. Mostly because of uni.
The question is, when will I stop being blown around? When will I feel
like I'm actually getting into something?

One day things look great, the next looks bad. I'm up and down more
times than a yo yo.

I suppose God gave me a clear sign about whether to go for single
English or not but what do I do next? Do I go back to where I was
or leave? If I leave, my A-levels wern't good so it might be hard to
find a job and if I stay, I have to know I really want to carry on.
The idea of leaving makes me feel guilty and the idea of carrying
on makes me feel pressured.

To carry on apparently I need to find something within myself to
drive me. But how? Who knows?

Welcome to the soap that is my life.

Please keep praying guys! It makes a difference even if you pray
for just one second.

One second of your life may contribute to my life over the next
few years.

Tuesday, August 16, 2005

Duh duh duh!!!!!!

I came to a decision about uni last week!
I've been getting things sorted for next year which is why I haven't
posted for a few days!

I've decided to carry on at uni but doing a single hons in English
Literature rather than continuing to combine it with Classical

I've felt relief and happier about this decision.
Without having previously studied Classics or had experience in
the subject I was overwhelmed! As a result my grades in English
were pulled down too. Studying two subjects makes things harder
anyway. I think it was too much to try and concentrate and learn
definitions for two seperate subjects. This makes things easier.

Although I love ancient history and have researched into it
personally, I think it's slightly different from studying it.
Also, I've never really been into ancient Greece! I did OK
in the Roman topics but there was too much about Greece and
nothing about Egypt which I know a fair bit about.

I will always love ancient history though and I'll carry on in it
someway. I'm always reading books about it or something.
It's a part of me. I might volunteer to work in
the British Museum a few hours a week and maybe do some
courses in ancient history later.

Anyway, I love Literature too and now I get to spend more
time on it. I know I'm better at studying this subject. Even
a classics lecturer I went to see last week said I seemed to
be better at literature based topics.

I'm still waiting for replies from uni about how long it will
take me to make up modules etc. I predict that I will have
to do an extra full-time year to get English credits up!
Maybe a bit more.

Well it's been a tough couple of years but I feel happier now!

Thanks for your prayers!

I've gotta get back to an essay now. I've got to hand two in
by next week. Both resits for English.
Okay so far!

Thursday, August 11, 2005

Website of the day!

Okay I've known about this site for ages but if
you're bored and like weapons and LOTRs then
have a peak! This sells display (and possibly practical)
weapons cheaper than I've seen elsewhere on the net
besides Ebay (depending on how the auction goes)!
They do a fair amount of movie replicas
and have a good variety in general!

If only I had the money...

P.S. My life is still not going in any particualr direction at
the mo concerning work and uni! Been switching decisions
again but went to my new cell group last night and
was prayed for which is good! I'm completely and utterly sure
that I'll come to a decision soon. Well I have to because time is
running out BIG time! I have a week at most to decide and probs
less than that! In fact if any of you guys could pray for me about
this, that would be great! Big life decision!

Thursday, August 04, 2005

Poetry corner

My Favorite Psalm:

I look up to the mountains -
does my help come from there?
My help comes from the Lord,
who made the heavens and the earth!

He will not let you stumble or fall;
the one who watches over you will
not sleep. Indeed he never tires
and never sleeps.

The Lord himself watches over you!
The Lord stands beside you as your
protective shade. The sun will not
hurt you by day, nor the moon at

The Lord keeps you from all evil
and preserves your life. The
Lord keeps watch over you as
you come and go, both now and

Psalm 121
(New Living Translation)